This week was the week my dear friend Jasphet suggested me to write some short memories about my life in a way they can reflect a story or the story of my life.
I think it was worth a shot but maybe the problem is that I think my life is too boring and tribial to actually someone else find it interesting.
This week was a different week, it begun a bit heavy and it had its bright moments but in the end everything ended in a mysterious depression and fear that invaded my body.
Even thought things are going really good at school over the course of the week stuff got complicated, let's begin by missing two assignments from two different subjects, it hurt me because the ghost I know as unproductiveness was still haunting me, it was also scary. It somehow desmotivated me but I kept on thanks to my partner who always motivates me in my hardest moments. However excluiding classes dead hours at the campus are the heaviest part of my schedule, and they actually hurt my soul. I wish I could have complete use of that free time, it's destroying me in someway. My friend is constantly remembering me I'm hardly good at anything and that I have a high probability of failing my career, I don't know, sometimes I think he just thinks too much about facts and not about situations.
Altought the road home is heavy and long I hardly get tired, but lately it has been feel awkward thanks to my 'friend' like my partner says, but most important on friday it felt really heavy for the first time, I had a bad feeling.
And such bad feeling invaded me when my partner acted ominously moments before going to sleep. I have now insomnia, I'm scared, she usually isn't like this. Something is troubling her.
Or what if our relationship is going to change again?
I can think one hundred possibilities but in the end... I won't know for sure, at least not now. And I hadn't the chance to tell her tomorrow will be kind of a busy day, suddenly I want to cancel everything.
I'm really scared and I didn't expected this sudden turn of events, which makes it obvious that its affecting the quality of this writing
I'm truly sorry.
